Monday, 25 May 2020
22:34
Okay, let's try this, then. Disperse with the snark at my own expense.
Fuck, has a lot changed since I last wrote here. I was complaining about music then, and before that, about Japan. Typical.
Things happened between then and now. The biggest, I got a job and consequently quit a job. The effects from this alone were immense, lifting the depression I had sunk into the year or two prior. It gave me an easy way to get out of Japan – not that I was trying to, necessarily, but it had to happen sometime.
I'm still not completely adjusted to this change. I had my life sorted there – I knew the days to put out the bins, how to sort the recycling, how to get around. Dealing with people was simplified. I could keep to myself and only interact when necessary and the non-native speaker barrier stopped many. I did not complain. I've traded that for a feeling of less freedom. Life is by far simpler, but I lack a certain amount of agency. I may change that, but nothing is certain right now.
I'm focusing on the negative aspects of this change, but truly, the positive outweigh the negative. I'm just being a misery.